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3 Week Mental Detox! Week 3: Be Connected

Nov 19, 2021

Be connected to LOVE.

Do you know that a newborn baby would die without being shown affection from its caregiver? This was proven by an experiment done in 1944 in the United States. Every human being needs to feel loved, or we will find it very difficult to survive. Currently, suicide rates for young adults and teenagers are rising. According to CDC records, suicide is the SECOND leading cause of death for ages 10-24 in this country.

 The good news is that you are loved. Mother Earth loves you no matter how many mistakes you have made! Mother Earth holds you with gravity just like how she holds everyone else. Imagine if mother earth were to say to you, “Hey, you’ve been a bad boy, you got drunk again last night. I’m fed up with you and I’m not going to hold you anymore…” Poof! There you go. You are thrown into outer space, screaming, “Ahhh”…and floating without gravity, feeling totally out of control...

 In fact, not only Mother Earth loves you. You also have an inner guide that has your best interests in mind and tells you the truth whether you like it or not. Many people recognize this part of self as the Conscience. I call this part of you, your Inner Twin. Your Inner Twin knows your every little dark secret, yet your Inner Twin will never judge you and always love you unconditionally.

 Many of us develop a habit of living in fear. When we focus on fear, we don’t feel love. The first step in recovery is to remember that your Inner Twin is available to you 24/7! You are not alone on this journey. Whenever you feel fear or loneliness, all you need to do is to reach out to your Inner Twin. The closer your connection with your Inner Twin, the more love you will feel. Indeed, love is the most powerful cure for healing!

 In November 2013, one afternoon I came home from work and found my husband Gordon having a very hard time breathing. I thought he was having an asthma attack. I gave him breathing treatments with his inhaler, but his condition got worse. He was pale, sweaty, and not able to speak. His entire body was struggling to get oxygen. I immediately called 911. The ambulance came and rushed him to the ER. There were about 15 people in the room, and half of them were interns. The attending doctor was teaching the interns, “Let’s try this medication, if this doesn’t work, let’s try that…” Meanwhile, Gordon was fighting off the oxygen mask, he begged, “Please help me, I can’t breathe…” I couldn’t help but move closer, trying to be by his side. After two hours of trying various medications, nothing worked. As they were about to give him tracheotomy, the medical team screamed at me, “Ma’am, Ma’am, get out of the way! Get out of the way!” They were about to put a straitjacket on me and send me to the mental hospital.

 I was standing in the corner of the ER, watching Gordon die in front of my eyes. My knees were shaking uncontrollably. I felt so helpless and powerless. It was at that moment, that I reached out to my Inner Twin. My Inner Twin reminded me to practice “Surrender”. This is a situation completely out of my control. To surrender means to say good-bye to Gordon. So, I did. In my head, I said to Gordon, “This has been the most amazing 11 months of my life and I treasured every moment of it. If this is the time that you need to go, I am ok with it. I would feel very sad about it. But I just don’t want you to suffer anymore.” Simultaneous and miraculously, the attending doctor figured out maybe Gordon had anaphylaxic shock. He gave Gordon a shot of epinephrine, within just minutes Gordon was able to breathe normally again.

 This experience not only brought Gordon and I closer. More importantly, it showed me that no matter what happens, I will always have someone internally who loves me, especially when no one is available to comfort me.

 Being connected to LOVE means being connected to your Inner Twin. Once you are connected to your Inner Twin, it’s like your power cord is plugged in. You are not here to suffer, you are here to celebrate! Celebrate the fact that you are powerful beyond measure!

 “Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.” – Carl Jung